more than you

I think she cares
more than you

you are ruining
everything ——again.
born through a crack in time,
mistake,
a butterfly effect

she cares more than you,
but she didn’t lose sleep
——————————-and herself
she didn’t force herself awake,
slippers on the bed,
vomit in her throat
a nurse saying it’s unusual to think like this

she isn’t the one
who needs to forgive forget
she isn’t the one who cares more
—-isn’t the one who cares at all

no

you’re sad
make other people sad
want other people to be
sad

want me to feel for you
but you don’t care
about anyone,
me

you broke me,
now you’re sad,
want to be,
want me to be sad